Auchn deutscher Text:
Fuck everyone.
And this is my last Statement just in case
That youre gonn make it
And i blast a bullet in my head.
My girl and all cant understand
my breath gives away, feel the spirit slip away
end of my times
dead on the hard shoulder.
My Babys cryin cause i left in quarrell,
left me, cause my stupid behavior went too far.
But that wasnt the reason,
Id like to tell it too her
but my voice rests in grave
while angels carry me up to stars.
It was just like they say in TV
saw myself many years ago
bout four or five i might`ve been, but hard to say.
As little lad i had much too carry:
Just explain a kid what it means when false riends crash your heart.
Wanted to play with you and be a part of it, a part of the fun
But there was none of you that would`ve let me, so I sat at home allday.
You outside on the run, I inside and read storys,
forgot my duties, had to much to do fleeding out of world.
Only lived in Lands of fantasy, never understood you:
How can you bee so blind, if deep inside you there is all the answer?
But by cutting you`ve let me know
that you love to hate me, charge me with every modicum of sense.
Fuck it.
Im at home, open the closet,
grab the Seabag under the trash and get my pump out.
I never thought, that it´d be of anya use,
bought it only, cause its cheap with the right connections.
Only a collectors-piece, wanted to sell it long ago, get rid of it,
the I regognize that both barrels are empty.
No problem, wheres my phone?
look for the number of Erkans Son in the Filofax, he´s gonna fix it.
Two hours later, I bought what I need:
a cartridge for every barrels, though one´s gonna take my life.
Dont think,
drive the car of the car park
turn left
head to the heath in deep thoughts.
I feel, I aint got nothin to do or to say,
if anyone´s got open questions, listen to the records
I dont give a fuck and park the car.
I till hear my uncle talk
understand the sense of the Tip:
place the gun right under the chin.
Form with mouth and palate an emptyroom,
the bullet´s gonna have more space to powder the brain.
Flashlights in front of my eyes, when i push the trigger:
Filmic episodes of lieperiods, fas cuts,
hash,
chicks,
parties,
father,
mother strugglin for life,
big fear,
girlfriend,
disappointment,
demon, blessed land.
Heaven´s comin, strings and harps,
spirits, that talked, but suddenly the fuinish:
Silence, than the call:
I shall wait.
I feel myself again, Tears stream through eyelids,
up and down, breath and chest syncroniseable.
My heart´s pumpin blood through my nervous system as always,
finally I dare makin the first look onto the world and recognise my children´s room.
twelfe years of age and allready dreamed prophetically.
From now on, my life´s gonna change.
For me.
With or without you.
Ich hab mir dick Mühe gegeben mit dem Text, also baucht ihr bitte schön auch schön lange zum erraten. Jetzt verstehe ich, weshalb Abhörspezialisten im kalten Krieg als Übungsaufgabe Gedichte des Feindes übersetzen mussten....
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